All For Love

heheh so i am really excited today.
well here is why,
so i was getting all comfortable in my bed and i picked up my bible to do my regular reading.. and all the sudden i was like i should read 2 Corinthians, i don't really know why... but i think someone was talking about it at school and i just decided i would read it..which is werid because im not that normally spontaneous in my bible reading. SO i pick it up and i start to read and i read this:
"2 Corinthians 1:8-9"
We even gave up hope of living, Truly, in our hearts we believed we would die. But this happened so we would not trust ourselves but in God who raises people from the dead.
O MY WORD. how i needed that. This week has been really rough on me. I think its been pretty tough... and its not like i felt like i was going to die but i felt really worn out and just not adequate to to what i was doing. I started to feel hopeless at myself and feel like like well a piece of crap.Its that sense of helplessness that kills me because as you all know i love to be in control of what happens to me and around me.But then i read this... that sometimes these things happen not so that we would not trust ourselves but in our GOD!! and then it even emphasises it when Paul continues to write... our God who even raises people from the dead! HOW AWESOME IS HE!! and so i think God was telling me to trust him, that everything was going to be okay, and that i needed to stop relying on myself and start relying on him and laying my burdens at his feet. I feel so light and free. :D and i just thought you guys should all know that. :D