All For Love

heheh so i am really excited today.
well here is why,
so i was getting all comfortable in my bed and i picked up my bible to do my regular reading.. and all the sudden i was like i should read 2 Corinthians, i don't really know why... but i think someone was talking about it at school and i just decided i would read it..which is werid because im not that normally spontaneous in my bible reading. SO i pick it up and i start to read and i read this:
"2 Corinthians 1:8-9"
We even gave up hope of living, Truly, in our hearts we believed we would die. But this happened so we would not trust ourselves but in God who raises people from the dead.
O MY WORD. how i needed that. This week has been really rough on me. I think its been pretty tough... and its not like i felt like i was going to die but i felt really worn out and just not adequate to to what i was doing. I started to feel hopeless at myself and feel like like well a piece of crap.Its that sense of helplessness that kills me because as you all know i love to be in control of what happens to me and around me.But then i read this... that sometimes these things happen not so that we would not trust ourselves but in our GOD!! and then it even emphasises it when Paul continues to write... our God who even raises people from the dead! HOW AWESOME IS HE!! and so i think God was telling me to trust him, that everything was going to be okay, and that i needed to stop relying on myself and start relying on him and laying my burdens at his feet. I feel so light and free. :D and i just thought you guys should all know that. :D

Don't Give it Up

YAY!! Its a THRUSDAY
which means FRIDAY IS COMING UP!!
so actually i planned on writing in color...but this computer doesnt have it...
werid eh?
so today i have to say that worship practice went WELL!!
i am so happy about it..hehe and i didn't stress...well i stressed a little bit but it was actually fun. and we had cookies.
and then i went for tchoukball...and isaak almost killed me.
stupid silly little boy.
And thennnn i played some soccer with aaren...
and it was raining.
and i played in the rain.
and then my mom was like WHY?!?!
you just got better and then you go and play in the rain..
hehe... such a bad little girl i am.
But how often to you get to play in rain that is probably very acidic because of our smog. hehe.
so i cant wait
2moro is next degree
and its going to be all yay
and whoop---E
heheh so can't wait
hope you guys can make it.. :D

BLEEP.

Ah so i haven't blogged in like forever.
so pretty much.
my week...was especially stressful this week..
werid right?
because this was supposedly by week off.
haha maybe its because i had too much free time so i had some free time to stress it all up. hahah if that even is in correct gramatical form.
And seriously had a GREAT time at NEXT DEGREE! everything was flawless and i think our youth group has bonded. I LOVE IT! it is amazing and i love that i have been seeing people all around me step up and doing amazing things for God. WHICH IS WHAT I LOOOOVEE TO SEE!
Then we played the boys in volleyball..
we lost.. :(
so sad. very sad. at least isaac was not there to mock me. :P
and then joshua goes and like yells something about looking left while i serve and then i serve left and i got distracted and ah!!! im going to get you back joshua.
Hahaha and then they would do their retarded stupid whale dance... and chang pet the whale... o_O
and then when they screwd up they would be like kick the whale.. again.. o_O?
werid rightt...so that was my friday.
saturday i went for some yummy dim sum. my favorite thing to eat for dim sum is sui mae. that is like yummy.
and then i went and got ingredients for my hummus. YUM!
and then yeah. i did some homework... and played a little bit of my sims..cant WAIT till the EP comes out. and yeah. pictures are coming soon! <3

Its our time to MOVE

So i actually did want to have like lots of color...but i dunno why this computer doesn't have that option?!?! weird..haha i think so.
so anyway...today is a good day. :D
i had a good day...and i feel actually not stressed as i sit here and write.I mea what could be more relaxing then writing or actually talking as long as you want...even though no one maybe be listening or even cares for that matter at least i get to have it out in the open right?!
so i hit 1000 views like a long time ago..
which all i can say is like yay. yay. yay. yay.... hahah and dance a little happy dance. :D
so today i had lunch with sarah, BB, and paullyn.
hahah me and sarah had intresting talks...
i think i always have intresting talks with sarah... :D
and then BB like keeps stealing my eraser and then throwing it at my head...
and then she asks me out for badminton and i say yes to find out that it is cancelled. :(
but its okay i still forgive her. hhaha :D
and then i had a talk with weeyen, isaac, keiffer, and aaron when i told them that if i have to pay 70 RM a month for sports then thats just a rip off. And then i said that i didn't want to play with little 8 year old boys...o wait i think i got corrected...they are 10!! wow what a difference... and weeyen actually agrees with me on that. and aaron is just like well give it a chance.... hahah no i don't think so aaren or thank you... hahai just realized i spelled his name wrong the previous like two times. SO yesh... and then i mocked isaac, and weeyen, and neilson for loosing to us girls again in volleyball..poor BOYS... can't take defeat like real MEN.. LOL
silly boys. ;)
and then i had a wonderful Post Motem meeting... lovely. :D
and i came home, finished up some work and then i came home...here. to the computer..and i sat down and wrote to you. :D how special you must feel.
so anyway title up there? i mean this is out TIME TO MOVE! malaysian youth... its out time to start stepping up to the NEXT DEGREE...haha (wow that just came up) and shining brighter for jesus right?1 <3 <3 <3 <3

And even if i search all the world...i will never find a love like yours. <3

So what started to be one of the worst mornings ever spent in my days in KL...

it has turned out to be the BEST DAYS EVER!

I have to say that i love these people

Sarah Ti

Hazel Chazel

Weeyen

Jon Rob

Uncle Kevin

Joshua

AND

BB (hahah she would scream at me if i forgot her)

They have been the best ever and i love them insanely much.
hahah there goes my wonderful grammer.
So i feel way better and i just have a sense of peace right now in my heart.
So thank you guys. :D <3>
So today i went for volleyball practice and we like kinda messed around in the puddles and had lots of fun. :D then i made Bee take her shoes off and then i made her put her shoes back on. hahah it was just CRAZINESS.
and then we played the boys in volleyball
AND WE BEAT THE BOYS IN VOLLEYBALL!! hahaha...
like they kept insisting that there was like a foul and we were like wahtever...
and so we beat them like "twice" hahah thanks to jon wong. :D
So haha isaac has lost to us twice in a row...and they werent playing as easy as last time.
And we didn't even have like our bestest players. so yay girls. :D
so that was my friday...and now im having a lovely saturday.

Jesus Your My Superhero

HEY!
so todays worship practice went actually well despite the mild confusion at the start...
SO IF YOU CAN COME ON FRIDAY...come...because itll be lots of fun. :D
SO today i ate lunch with chanelle.. <3...
shes so funny...she has so much random info in her head...which is very entertaining..
i started this word search puzzle and i cannot find the last like 3 words which is KILLING ME.
ahhh. so yup. and then i dunno..i told my life story since monday to sarah ti...haha i love sarah ti!! :D
and then uh joshua is really good at singing and playing all the instruments...he can like play everything..hes' really cool. :D you should meet him...
and then i had a meeting with hazel and mr.prody...or i dunno how to spell his name...
but he is SOO TALENTED!!
and then i went for worhship practice...
and then i came home...
and then i ate dinner...
and then im going to shower...
and then im going for prayer meeting...
and then ill go to sleep..
and then ill wake up...
and then my day will start all over again!!

I Think That They Could Be, The Better Half of Me

I JUST HATE MYSELF~! and i wish that i could be the person i wanted to be.
okay so i have to warn you,
this is going to be a slightly emo post.
You know seriously its hard to frikken please everyone.
It seriously can't be done.
Im so sorry you feel that way.
but you know what? i feel i have no fault in it.
Its not my fault that you've been so moody.
Its not my fault you don't know how to have your own voice.
i miss my friends.
i miss africa.
i miss all things familiar.
don't get me wrong.
i love my school.
i love GRC.
there are so many great ppl there that if they were not there i would hate this place.
and i love serving in NEXT DEGREE.
i love it...its the only time where i think i can actually destress and have a little fun during the day.
And sometimes i hate the weekends...because then i have to wait a whole week to see my friends!
but then i love the weekends because i can play my sims. :D
So yeah... for YOU who assumed that this post was bout someone you know... then stop assuming and come and ask me...because i assure you its not.
okay love <3

I'll Keep You My Dirty Little Secret

SO... diaries..
does anyone here keep like an old-fashioned diary?
because i think keeping diaries are DANGEROUS!
ive known like a lot of ppl who keep these written diaries and then people find out and then everyone is embarrassed or maybe they just keep it to themselves and wait for that person to write some more. haha i don't know.
but i think they are too dangerous to keep right?!?!
So ya...thats why you should keep all embarassing or secret things in your head.
or i suppose you could say that this blogging thing is like a diary?!?!
but i guess this is the type of stuff thats okay..
becuase if i write it then it means its not to secret.
anyway I TALKED TO MY BEST FRIEND EVER!
eirin marie evjen.
if you go to the first post of mine or like the second post.
its about her.
she's awesum.
she might come to MALAYSIA!
liek ya.
so happy ness everywhere. :D

Shake Shake Shake Shake Shake It!!

OMG!! this is pink.
hahah wow... so haha so today
in volleyball practice... my so amazing coach (haha if you think aaren is amazing)
well he keeps telling us keep moving keep moving side to side...
so haha i think while we're like hopping side to side...we should sing that song. because haha ya.
does that not make sense..you know what it would make sense to sarah ti. hahaha well it think so.
so we like totally BEAT THE BOYS TODAY IN VOLLEYBALL!
and like most of the team was like 15 and like all the guys were like 18... haha
but i think they were kind to us...but maybe they shouldn't be so kinda because we want a game!!
ahhh so my volleyball skills... screwing up on the little things which is really fustrating me lately.
but it was awesome and my team was awesome..and miss.eunice was so happy for us.. haha yay.
SO now im writing in gray because i found soemthing sad.
there are people who hate play dough. so sad. why?!?! why?!?!
And now brown because i dunno i like brown. :D
I kinda shared for a while during my ISCF!! and i want to say like i hope everyone in my group..
WE were group #1. :D
liked it. because i enjoyed it.. and i love all you 14 people and i expect superstars soon!! haha we all know keifer is going to be one of those. haha.
And my worship leading with my favorite bro ryan went well...i was very pleased with it.
RYAN YOU WERE GREEAAT!! :DDDD
EVERYONE WAS GREAT
so i want to say that these people did a good job, ryan, sarah ti, hazel, calvin, carson, weeyen. jonrob, michelle, and paulyne, and saph. very good job!!
SO you must be wondering why such a long post...
because im waiting for my sims downloads to load...
takes a while..because there are many things to load.
so yes....
what else happened today....
O YA!.. my sharing... i loved it...it was great..and i hope my group really understood where i was coming from and that from me they impact someone else and we have a whole like chain reaction!! haha i think i told them that a lot...
ANNNND... i think thats it...wow such a very long blog post...
well love to all. :D
<3